Silence

Shh...shh! My experience with menstruation

“Shh! Shush!” Are these the first expressions that come to mind, when you think of periods? You are not alone. 

I was shushed so often that I thought boys or even grown men would never have heard of menstruation. “How would they know, if no one is going to tell them. Right?” I thought. It sounds childish now, but it made perfect sense to my tween mind. 

What I learned after meditating for 10 days

The bell sounds and 30 people sit quietly in a room without making eye contact. 

For an hour no one moves or says a word. The turn of a page would upset the stillness in the air.  

My eyes shield me and I see nothing but darkness. I try to focus on my breath. I don’t notice distraction creeping in. Thoughts fill the void. 

My internal dialogue: How long do I have to sit here? Ow ow ow my legs are going numb. That’s not normal. I wonder what’s for lunch? The tempeh was pretty good yesterday. This is stupid. I’m stupid. Why can’t I sit still without hurting? Why?